Wow, I can’t even remember the last time I posted here on O&A!
However, my brain was needing a bit of space, so I figured I might as well head on over hear and write everything out. As some of y’all may know, I am working on a project to start another blog (eventually), and so this blog is going to become more of my online diary. And this is entry one.
Gosh, so much has been going on lately.
Work & school, as per the usual. But I have also taken to working out with my boyfriend 3 times a week, and I just feel like i have been busy lately. Maybe I have just been wasting a lot of time though, because I can’t seem to think of what exactly I have been busy with.
Of course, I have been working on my new blog endeavor. However, I lost a bit of steam for it. At first, I was obsessively pinning and reading peoples blogs about how to successfully start and monetize a blog, and honestly it overwhelmed the crap out of me. There is a TON of stuff that goes into having a real, professional blog. SEO, good design, good pictures, solid posts and a post bank, social media, making graphics, etc. It was really starting to make me feel kinda… inferior. I had this thought process of “oh, before I launch I need to make sure my photography skills are up to par, I need to have at least 20 posts published with a post bank of another 20, I need to have a solid brand laid out, and on top of that I should probably learn basic web design and coding, too”.
Yikes. Needless to say, I really burnt myself out. I hate to admit it, but I have been struggling to get back to that place of original inspiration- that place where I wanted to have a blog for reasons other than money. I like to think I’m not a super material person, and watching my motivation for blogging dissolve into a simple income generator really had me disappointed in myself. I am working on getting back to my roots of why I love blogging, and sharing my life with so many people out there on the internet.
At the root of it, I really do want to help people. I want people to know they’re not alone in their struggles. I like learning about stuff, and telling people what I know. I like answering questions, and helping people to look inside of themselves and answer questions for themselves. I like writing, and being creative. I like getting to know interesting, quirky people. I like getting feedback from readers, on if I have helped them, or if they enjoyed my writing.
There are so many reasons why I like blogging, and why I have always had an interest in it. I just need to make sure I don’t lose sight of my motivation again.
That’s kinda why I came back to this blog, too. This blog doesn’t have the same pressures on me as my other one does. This blog is my free space, my space area. To write random, structureless posts, stream of consciousness style.
I hope you all are doing well.