Here we go (again).

Remember a long time ago, a couple months ago, where I had a total identity crisis and was seriously considering changing my major from Advertising to Graphic Design?

Well, it is happening again. Oops.

Let me back up a little and provide some background here–

As some of you may have noticed, I haven’t been posting much at all lately were on Onwards & Upwards. I have been busy with school and work, and honestly, I have had zero motivation to post on here. Not much has been going on for me. Except…. I am constantly thinking about starting my own business.

You may have read my post from a few weeks ago, Big Things In The Works, where I discussed my plans for taking this blogging thing to the next level with a fresh start and self hosted site. I have been doing a lot of research on turning a blog in to a business, monetizing it, reaching large audiences, etc. And the more I read about it, the more I yearned to have a real business, not just a blog that generates some money.

I have found myself scrolling, googley-eyed, through so many websites owned by amazing, ambitious women, and learning about all the different services and products they offer. Wedding/event planning, custom stationary, web design, graphic design, branding services, small shops, and so many other things. All I can think about when I see these businesses is I want that.

I want to provide something of value to people, something that will bring people joy and happiness, or ease in their life. Something I can personalize for people. An experience I can give to them. I really want to do something that makes a differences in peoples’ lives.

And so I started brainstorming.

I tried to come up with a list of things I am good at. Writing, learning concepts quickly, being open minded to trying new things, coming up with ideas, playing Sims 4…..

The list was pretty short. You see- I’m kind of a “Jack of all trades, master of none” typeof gal. I love trying new hobbies, but I never stick with anything enough to truly learn it. So what on earth can I possibly provide to people, when I have no authority on any single topic?

I am still struggling with this, honestly. I just simply lack the skills.

Ideally, I would love to do something like event planning, or creating custom paper goods, or help people with branding their businesses. I don’t know– just something creative.

And gosh, more and more I feel like my advertising degree is in no way, shape or form creative. If I ever work for an ad agency, I don’t want to manage accounts. I want to come up with the ideas, I want to implement them. But even so, I don’t see myself finding fulfillment in creating these things for big, lifeless corporations. I want to make a difference in a real person’s life- someone I can send a thank you card to or a handwritten note.

I want to live a creative life, and I want to help others do that too.

And the most obvious way to gain the kinds of skills I need to do that… is a graphic design major. The more I think about it, the more it makes sense. And then I wonder what talked me back into advertising last time this happened? I have no idea- maybe practicality?

Again, if I do this, I would probably get set back at least a semester, if I don’t take summer classes to catch up. However, there is no shame in taking extra time to complete a degree- just extra loans to pay back.

The only thing I am completely certain about is that I have a lot to think about. Wish me luck.



Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s