2015 was a pretty great year for me.
I made amazing friends, had amazing times with them, and it was my year of sheer honesty- with myself and with others. It was my year of no longer people pleasing, or pretending to be someone else. It was my year of authenticity.
It was fun getting to know myself, and no longer being afraid to say how I truly felt. Being so brash and honest had its upsides and its downsides. Some people reacted well, others not so much. Some relationships were forever changed because of it. But it was for the better- anyone who doesn’t accept you for who you are doesn’t need to be polluting your life with their negativity.
With that being said, there is still a lot left to figure out about who I am. It’s an ongoing journey, as it should be. Change is an important part of being human, and growing. It’s certainly an adventure constantly adapting to my changing wants and desires.
I have spent the past 365 days finding my authentic self, and letting her out.
For the next 366 (leap year, y’all!), I plan on finding my authentic happiness. I don’t care about the fake stuff anymore- the happiness we gain from fake things, like social media followers, or buying new things, or mindlessly wasting time.
I want to discover true, authentic happiness- the kind that resonates within you. I guess you might call it a calling, or a purpose. Whatever the name for it, I want to find mine. I want to find the things that matter most to me. I want to simplify to my desires to what is truly important to me. I want to dedicate my time to valuable pursuits.
Yesterday afternoon, I stumbled upon a really neat blog dedicated to minimalism as a lifestyle. One of the posts that caught my eye was a 30 day minimalism challenge. The concept is basically just giving up something every day that does not promote a minimalistic lifestyle and is, in general, unnecessary. She made a handy little chart with each of the 30 goals.
I’m not going to follow this to the T, because some of them just don’t apply to me. But I like the concept, and I am curious to try the majority of these and just see how it goes! Anything that helps me figure out what truly matters in my life, I’ll be willing to try!
In past years, I’ve made resolutions. A long time ago, they used to be concrete goals, like lose weight or eat healthier or be more studious. Last year, it was less concrete- to just be my authentic self. This year, I feel like it’s even less concrete- to find the authentic things that make me happy. I think resolutions are too constricting for me at this point in my life. I don’t want to dedicate myself to going to the gym three days a week or taking up a yoga regiment or studying for an hour a day. I want my 2016 to be a year of discovering what works best for me- which might be yoga or study schedules… but it also might not be.
I want this to be my year of not drawing myself into crazy boxes that I don’t actually fit into.
I just want to continue on this fun, exciting, unknown path of self discovery.
What are your resolutions for the New Year? Feel free to share in the comments!